CHOOSE RANT

Title:   No Karma, No Candy Day:    June 1st, 1999 Author:  Ruiner				Okay, I've got to get something done for this website. I feel so bad, because I want to do webwork - I want to be regarded as a designer, and yet I have so much trouble trying to make time to get this stuff done. Is it urge? Is it a lack of desire? Or is it merely a lack of time? So do I have a new topic with which to continue my saga? Sure. A theory I have on karma and the whole cosmic balancing act. More and more, I've come to believe that there is a force that tends to equalize things in your life. Something that brings everything closer to neutrality. In effect, too many good things happen, watch for something equally bad on the horizon. And applicably, too many bad things will be balanced out by something good. And then there is karma, the belief that the total sum of your actions in life determines your destiny. I think that people always need something to believe in, something they don't truly understand that they can grasp onto, whether it be religion or some odd theory or belief. For any that know me, they know that I don't follow any religion. The big hurdle for me is maintaining a set of morals (twisted and broken as they may be) with which to treat others and live a decent life. Regardless of how I joke about professing evil as my nature, I consider myself to deep down be one of the good guys. And I like to think that good acts will be rewarded, as will endurance of suffering. And I've really started to ponder this who karma thing, even though I don't really know where it comes from. Of course, I realize that it's easy to see where a belief in karma and this balance I speak of could stem from. You get in a slump, and things just spiral downward. When it seems like it's at an all-time high, you get that good thing that seems to make it all better. Question is, is it karma or is it just you latching on to that good thing, blowing it out of proportion so that it seems equal to all the bad? To me, I think it is a karmic deal. For instance, I had a nice string of 'bad' things go on this year. In the span on one week, I had my car break down in a bad way, and two computers of mine came down with the Chernobyl virus. Heck my watch battery even died that week. I know, it's just coincidence, but many things can be thought of as such. So I'm dealing with the bad, and I'm all downtrodden. But I recover, getting everything fixed, back working right. Okay, yeah the car was to the tune of $1100, but it's rolling now. And so I put my theory to the test. Would something good come in response to these events? Yes, actually something did. I hooked back up with a female friend of mine I care dearly for, and we had a rather cozy little weekend. Of course, it's not like I'm getting a steady girlfriend or anything. This is more of my typical 'tryst in the night' affair stuff. Maybe someday soon, I'll be able to get that really cool girl who seems perfect for me at the time. But on that same note, I'm scared of what I'll have to endure for it if my karma scale is right. And now, if my cards are played right, I should finally be moving in with one of the guys, a goal that should have been realized last year. I need the change of pace, and if I keep going, a new job may be in the works. We'll have to see. One nice thing about karma: when the chips are really down, it helps you to look forward to the days when things will go really right. I like it better than the afterlife reward deal. Instead of having to wait until I die to get some 'spiritual reimbursement' for my pains, I can collect in the here and now. I know this will draw some attention from my wondrous friends within organized religion, but as always I say, 'I'm not painting your cause in a bad light. I'm merely speaking my mind about other options.' So I will stress, in one of my rare instances, to keep these theories in mind regardless of what faith you follow. I think if you treat others well, you will be rewarded in kind. It's a good thing even if you don't see results any time in the near future. And if events just seem to keep spiralling down, dragging yours spirit with them, just perk up and look past it. Things always have a way of righting themselves, and you'll be on the high road in no time. Trust me… B.Mooney